Friday, July 30, 2010

AFraid of

i am afraid of:
that moment where limbs fall asleep, that they might not wake.
stretch marks, the hiding that causes and leaves them.
being alone,
with the wrong person.
not working hard enough, not enjoying enough.
unlocked bathroom doors.
mornings after.
ignorance, and how general that term is.
owning a cat.
sleeping while awake and dreaming too much.
scars.
closed minded people of 'faith'.
broken mirrors.
holding too tight, walking with closed fists.
backne.
aardvarks.
animals in people.
unwanted advances.
empty family.
mimes who write haiku.
bedbugs.
greed, guilt, regret.
the future of reality tv.
Global Warming.
using too few words, and too many.

Monday, July 5, 2010

joe, 23 (in a bar)

Shit fuck nah. I don’t want to believe in something. I did that, it hurt. Maybe cause it was another person it was contingent on another person. You can believe in objects and ideas and concepts and hopes as long as the aren’t attached to people. Cause people fuck up, People change their minds, people change their feelings. Don;t don’t don’t fucking look at me like that. ‘ye of little faith or whatever’ Hope hope hope. People fuck up don;t attach your hope on people. Don’t attach your hope on me. And i tell you this i will tell you this from day one now now now is day one see. I am going to fuck up. I am going to let you down I am going to hurt you, might not intend to but will. So yeah we cool? Good. No building shit. Here. Okay? Good. Now what's your number?